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So, instead of following the trend of Myspace and Facebook–I have picked up blogging. I am starting this because I want to share my thoughts and opinions on life, things we deal with everyday. I want to shed light on common troubles, and to just organize my thoughts. And so, it begins..

Life. It can be so hard these days. There is so much that keeps us worried, and so much we have to figure out; who you are as a person, what style will you reflect, what things interest you and the hardest one of them all– will you find that someone you’re compatible with and then [fingers crossed] fall in love. It’s this huge journey that is constantly showing the world who we are and what we have accomplished, whether it bad or good. And we’re all trying to a prove a point to everyone. Getting our dream job, dream car, how many friends do we have, how much money do we make, or just trying to get into a meaningful relationship hoping it will lead to marriage. The many pressures of life.

Sometimes I find myself sitting on the train stressing out about where is this going, where will I be in the next few months or what is the purpose of some things. It’s a never-ending guessing game, whether you like it or not. Always making choices by involving emotions, beliefs and/or politics.

Love is, I think the hardest thing to find or waiting for it to find you. It’s that rare gem we go searching for. I think of dating like the dressing room, Finding your type, does it fit, how much is it? It’s the classic trial and error. Some hit the jackpot early in life, and some won’t find their true love for years and years– and that can be frustrating. You start to ask yourself.. what’s wrong with me?

Time. It’s never on our side. I think it’s the cause of many people’s bitterness. Timing is everything. People will say there are a million fish in the sea, question is–Do you have the time and patience? You’ll find someone who you click with but they’re not ready or they are already with someone. Perfect. And it’s always just your luck that at one time you were a shitty person to the people who would try to make it work and hang on to you, but you would just ruin their life emotionally; or you just didn’t know what you wanted so you led them on. Then the next thing you know you’ve changed for the best and it just doesn’t even matter because no one wants you, or you just can’t find what you’re looking for. Like it’s the first time you try to be honest and up front and you just get kicked in the stomach.

It’s all about timing. Or karma can in fact be a true bitch.

-r