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So, new job, new apartment, made appointment to chop off my hair for a new look, broke up with my boyfriend for over a week, but then had him come down for Labor  Day weekend. So not everything is new, and thats what I am worried about. Am I falling back to old tendencies of going back to a guy because I dont have another one to distract me? I thought there was one guy who would make the situation easier, but as it turns out, when I had broken up  with my boyrfriend and hung out with this fellow, I didn’t feel the same. I didn’t have the flirtatious feeling, giddyness, I didn’t get nervous before we hung out, instead I felt stressed. Now, is it because before.. I liked the attention and feeling I got from him vs what I am missing from my actual boyfriend? Now that I wasn’t with anyone, there was potential of whatever wants to happen, and perhaps that scared me.

Maybe not. We shall see.

-r